gangster

just finished watch a movie..the movie is love story between a gangster and a reporter and the duty of the gangster..

the reporter fall in love to a gangster...both of them love each other..but the sad thing is he have to care about his group and his duty...he have to quit from this relationship....he promise to the gal that will back to meet her from killing his enemy....he is back...but he is hurted ....he is shoot by a policeman.....he do not want the gal feel dissapointed, he pretends like normal...

in the movie, the gangster said something that i m damn agree with... " in love with a gangster is very dangerous...they wont think of family's life, cuz they cannot spill where is the head and where are the other gangsters.... " ren zai jiang hu, shen bu you ji ma (mandarin).....

but when the feeling is come, no one can defend this feeling...cuz love is something very hard to understand...if u really want to understand it, it just will make u suffer...

i swear

i swear i want to study hard......
i swear i want to study hard and success in my future
to let someone dont have the right to scold me.....
i swear i want to get a DEGREE to prove that i m able to do that...(no like someone wasting the money)
i swear i want to study hard and move away from my brother.....
i swear i want to respect my parent and did not wat my brother did....
i swear i want to SUCCESS.........

i m serious now.....no lie....
no matter how hard i try.....
i HAVE to success...........
i dont want ppl look me down....
i dont want ppl laugh at me......

I SWEAR I HAVE TO SUCCESS..............

friendship

i go yum cha last nite with 1 of my best friend...

this is the only friend that know wat was happened during that suffering nite...
we talked a lot last nite...and i m shock that when i heard that another of my friend almost quarrel with those who attend to the party ..actually not really close with this friend...but she still treat me like that...i m so touching when i hear that...from there i really can feel the love from friend...

from there i only realize that i think too much...i keep asking myself wheter i did wrong in that day...but no answer..untill last nite, the answer come out itself....i din did wrong...just everybody has changed..the attitude is changed, the life style is changed, the college is changed...everything is changed....we r not classmate anymore, we do not have same topic anymore, we cannot find something that we can chat with..anyway, hate to hate ppl...hope to forget this moment soon......